WORRIED.....

So today i had a pep ( however you call it ) 

Well when the doc did it i stared bleeding. He said that its normal since during pregnancy you are more sensitive.

He said it can be spotting over the day. 

Not mentioned to not be sexual active. 

So after me n hubs... ****************

I started BLEEDING.. like bad. All over the bed, all over the shower.

Dude .. i FREAKED OUT. 

So i called the nurse. By the time i got cleaned up and cooled down enough to call.. the bleeding went to spotting. 

Nurse said to keep a good eye on it. It happens that i can start bleeding after making love. 

( I know for sure he wont get any till this baby is out ) 

If the bleeding gets heavier or i get bad cramps to go to the ER right away. If the flow gets heavy to slow to heavy till tomorrow to go see the doc asap. 

I am so worried. I do not wanna lose this baby. I dont think i could deal with that. Please... keep me n the baby in your prayers. 

Thank you

Week 12

Today i FINALLY got my first ultrasound. 

We have a very active and healthy baby. 

Doc had problems measuring it because he/she was moving so much. Now this pregnancy feels "Real".

I saw my baby, saw her/his heartbeat. Now i cant wait to find out if its a he or she. And since the last appt i have lost 5lbs. Whoohoo to that. lol. 

My next appt will be in a lil over 4 wks. I dont think we will find out the sex of the baby then, but the next after that should be THE appt. 

Finally my morning sickness is close to being gone. The only thing left is when i m hungry i need to eat like THAT second or i will start gagging. Its really weird, but hey. 

I still cant eat to much at a time, just like the portions you are suppose to eat, like ONE chicken breast ONE cup of mashed potatoes and ONE cup of Green beans or something like that. When we eat out, i NEVER finish my food. 

Cravings i don't think i have anything bad, i mainly wanna eat soup or sandwiches. No specific ones, just something like that. 

I will keep you all updated as soon as something new comes up <3 

I am ONE happy Momma today

Week 7 - 11

Today I am 10 Weeks & 6 Days. Baby approx 2 inches big by now. 

I still haven't been seen by a doctor. Which makes me really upset, but what can i do right. 

We had an appt Last week, but the doc had a meeting and since they cant write down a number right the couldn't call me, so out next appt is the 11th ( 8 days from now ) 

They better do an ultrasound or i be MAD...

My tummy is getting bigger, i think i am mainly just really bloated .

Finally my morning sickness seems to get better, i can actually eat without being super sick after. 

I still cant eat without taking my pills ( Zofran) but i dont have to take more then a day no more. Whoohoo. 

Besides that i guess i am doing okay.

Just wish i would have more family support then i have now. 

I know they have things going on it their life too but is it to much to ask to call for a sec, or to write a email or a msg on FB? I guess so. 

Constantly i have been trying to get in contact but they are drowned in their problems so they dont care about whats going on around them. 

No: How are you doing.

No: How are the kids?

No: How is the baby doing. 

NOTHING

The only one who really keeps me updated and asks about MY family is my sister. If it wasnt for her i would not know ANYTHING that is doing on with my family in germany.

When asking why he never asks about me or the baby, she said he told her that he does not have to he can read it all on FB. 

ARE YOU KIDDING ME?

So i guess, from now on i will not post anything baby related on FB no more huh? 

Will that make him write me? Make him care. 

Whatever, i have done what i could do from here. 

I m tired of fighting for something that might not be worth fighting for. 

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I will let you know how the appt on the 11th went ... 

Thank you for reading