WORRIED.....

So today i had a pep ( however you call it ) 

Well when the doc did it i stared bleeding. He said that its normal since during pregnancy you are more sensitive.

He said it can be spotting over the day. 

Not mentioned to not be sexual active. 

So after me n hubs... ****************

I started BLEEDING.. like bad. All over the bed, all over the shower.

Dude .. i FREAKED OUT. 

So i called the nurse. By the time i got cleaned up and cooled down enough to call.. the bleeding went to spotting. 

Nurse said to keep a good eye on it. It happens that i can start bleeding after making love. 

( I know for sure he wont get any till this baby is out ) 

If the bleeding gets heavier or i get bad cramps to go to the ER right away. If the flow gets heavy to slow to heavy till tomorrow to go see the doc asap. 

I am so worried. I do not wanna lose this baby. I dont think i could deal with that. Please... keep me n the baby in your prayers. 

Thank you

Week 12

Today i FINALLY got my first ultrasound. 

We have a very active and healthy baby. 

Doc had problems measuring it because he/she was moving so much. Now this pregnancy feels "Real".

I saw my baby, saw her/his heartbeat. Now i cant wait to find out if its a he or she. And since the last appt i have lost 5lbs. Whoohoo to that. lol. 

My next appt will be in a lil over 4 wks. I dont think we will find out the sex of the baby then, but the next after that should be THE appt. 

Finally my morning sickness is close to being gone. The only thing left is when i m hungry i need to eat like THAT second or i will start gagging. Its really weird, but hey. 

I still cant eat to much at a time, just like the portions you are suppose to eat, like ONE chicken breast ONE cup of mashed potatoes and ONE cup of Green beans or something like that. When we eat out, i NEVER finish my food. 

Cravings i don't think i have anything bad, i mainly wanna eat soup or sandwiches. No specific ones, just something like that. 

I will keep you all updated as soon as something new comes up <3 

I am ONE happy Momma today

Week 7 - 11

Today I am 10 Weeks & 6 Days. Baby approx 2 inches big by now. 

I still haven't been seen by a doctor. Which makes me really upset, but what can i do right. 

We had an appt Last week, but the doc had a meeting and since they cant write down a number right the couldn't call me, so out next appt is the 11th ( 8 days from now ) 

They better do an ultrasound or i be MAD...

My tummy is getting bigger, i think i am mainly just really bloated .

Finally my morning sickness seems to get better, i can actually eat without being super sick after. 

I still cant eat without taking my pills ( Zofran) but i dont have to take more then a day no more. Whoohoo. 

Besides that i guess i am doing okay.

Just wish i would have more family support then i have now. 

I know they have things going on it their life too but is it to much to ask to call for a sec, or to write a email or a msg on FB? I guess so. 

Constantly i have been trying to get in contact but they are drowned in their problems so they dont care about whats going on around them. 

No: How are you doing.

No: How are the kids?

No: How is the baby doing. 

NOTHING

The only one who really keeps me updated and asks about MY family is my sister. If it wasnt for her i would not know ANYTHING that is doing on with my family in germany.

When asking why he never asks about me or the baby, she said he told her that he does not have to he can read it all on FB. 

ARE YOU KIDDING ME?

So i guess, from now on i will not post anything baby related on FB no more huh? 

Will that make him write me? Make him care. 

Whatever, i have done what i could do from here. 

I m tired of fighting for something that might not be worth fighting for. 

End of Post 

I will let you know how the appt on the 11th went ... 

Thank you for reading

6th Week

6th Week . 

Trying to get my baby check out is harder then i thought around here. I called the woman health clinic here in Manhattan. They cant see me without a referral. So i called TriCare to get one. They gave me a doc in St. Marys. Called there. They had to see me before they can give me one. So i made an appointment. 

Let me tell you i have NEVER been to such a CREEPY doc EVER. 

For one he was REALLY old and if he didn't stare at my boobs they tried to sell us so weird horse vitamins. I HAVE NEVER BEEN TO A DOC THAT TRIED TO SELL ME STUFF. Anyway.... 

They told me they had a lady that Tricare didn't cover going to Manhattan since its to close to Ft. Riley so they would snuggest to go to Topeka. I heard there are better hospitals anyway so we agreed. Monday she called me and let me know she sent the papers to TriCare. So now i m waiting for her to let me know when i FINALLY have my FIRST appointment to get my Baby checked out. 

This is crazy around here. But ohhhhh well not much i can do about it anyway. 

2 Days ago, i puked up blood. And boy, let me tell you I WAS WORRIED. 

With Conor ( My last child ) I puked till i was like 8 month and not ONCE blood came out. So i thought of the worst. Went to go see my local doc. He said he thinks i just ripped something when i puked. He gave me some pills to help with the nausea. They said they are the best and i could eat whatever with them. YEAH.... I CANT.... lol. They help for a bit, but still as soon as i eat i get SO sick. 

Hopefully it will be over in 5 wks. 

I got to say, this pregnancy has already brought me and my husband so much closer together. And i am SOOOOOO emotional. When he just LOOKS at me very sweet i start balling my eyes out. When he hold my hand and says i love you, I CRY. Just thinking about HOW HAPPY we are, how happy he makes me.. I CRY.... This pregnancy is already so much different then my last 2. 

I dont remember ever crying so much or being SO emotional. 

I cant say if there are signs for it being a girl. Deans pregnancy was TOTALLY different then Conors. So i dont really have much to compare to.

Well i ll keep you all updated <3 

Thank you for reading <3

We are Expecting Again : Baby #3

OMG WE ARE EXPECTING BABY #3 

We have been trying for our 3rd child for almost 9 month now. My circle was unregular, means my period never came at the same time. So when i was 5 days late this time, i just thought "Ohh i am late AGAIN". Since it was nothing new. I started feeling sick and nausea, so Hubby suggested I should take a test. I was not putting my hopes up, cuz every time i was "Late" and i took a test, a day later i got my period. So when i did the test at like 7 pm, and it came out positive, i didn't believe it. We took one before and it KINDA showed positive, when i retook in the the AM it was negative. So i sent Hubs to the store to get another pack. Took that one at like 7.30 PM. Positive Again. I STILL didn't believe it ( since the last time was negative in the AM), so i told Hubs i would take the other one in the AM to be sure. He was sure already lol. Sure enough after i took it in the AM.. IT WAS POSITIVE and i finally as able to believe it as well. 
I am soooo happy, we are hoping really bad for this to be a baby girl. We have 2 wonderful boys and would love to have a wonderful daughter. Just need a little support on the female side :) 


Its my first time having a kid in the US. Its really weird for me. I have a doctor i don't know, A doctor who does not know me or my previous pregnancy's. The way they do things around here. In Germany on my first doc appointment, they checked on the baby, made sure its there, made sure its ok so far. No matter if you are 4wks or 10 wks. Here they wont see me until i am 11wks along?
I am just a lil worried about that. Might not seem as such a big deal to others but to me it kinda is. 
What if something is wrong, or the baby is not alive or something. I wouldnt know until i am 11 wks.
I am 5 wks and 1 day now. Its a long time if you think about it. 


Well we will see how things will go, on the plus side - as far as i heard here they can tell you between 20wks - 25 wks the sex of your child. Which would be super amazing, cuz i am like the most inpatient person you ll ever meet. They ones who know me, know this is true. With Dean i didn't knew he was boy till 8th month and with Conor i was 7month. So knowing it 4th month would be AMAZING. As of right now, we will be keeping the sex of the child for ourselves. Until we think we wanna tell :)


Signs of being pregnant : 
So far i have morning sickness, not to bad yet, just feel really nausea when i get up or eat something. 
My tummy hurts a bit and my nibbles are very sensitive but besides that i dont feel much different. 

I cant wait to feel our little Jelly bean. Form now on i will try to post here whenever we have updates on the lil one. Thank you for reading and joinging me and my family on this Journey :)